hello world. i don't know why, but this just feels like the right thing to do, so i'll go with it i suppose.
writing a blog, especially my first one is kind of weird because anyone around the world can see this. kind of crazy to just imagine that, but also pretty cool at the same time. this is mainly to document my thoughts and maybe some of this could help others.
ok going back to the topic, i just wanted to put the idea that the hardest part of anything is just getting initially started. i know it's probably weird coming from some random 20 year old and also very cliche, but i didn't realize the importance of it until i talked about it with someone else (aneesh) recently and put it in practice. sure in the past i've applied it to some parts of my life in a small fashion. i first started taking the gym seriously like during december of last year and told myself that it's pretty much a non-negotiable. doing that alone helped me a lot to have a better mindset about living healthy. from there, i knew i had a youtube addiction but didn't know how to get rid of it until fall of this year once i came back to college. i just told my self i will do anything but watch youtube for as long as i can and it just ended up working out. of course i still watch productive youtube videos, but anything in the realm of entertainment, i haven't watched any since.
another good example where this worked out really well was with running. when i got to seattle for the summer, i had envisioned myself running a couple times a week because the weather was amazing compared to anything in texas. i absolutely hated running, and still find it difficult, so i would always make excuses for myself until i met someone (taeuk) who would run with me. he had already been really into running and then we happened to stumble on the fact that i wanted to run, but never started. so he suggested we go for a run and so we did. little did i know we were going to start with a 5k. that and the next couple runs were probably the hardest runs i've done yet (even longer distance runs have felt better), but it was that initial push to get started that was important. had i not met him, i don't know if i would be running right now.
the thing is, i hadn't realized the hardest part of doing anything was starting, until like a recent realization. so me going to the gym, stopping youtube, and running all came somewhat naturally, maybe unconsciously is a better term. but more recently, after the eureka moment, i've been getting all my school work done instantly so i have time for other things. getting started with my work early and finishing it early gave me more free time, but i didn't know what to do with it. so then i thought back to why i have all this free time and realized again that it was just by getting started. so i started and made my personal website for fun. i also contemplated having a blog, but i again reassessed the situation and thought to myself that i just need to get started and everything else comes naturally.
although right now i kinda stepped out of this mindset in terms of making myself food. i dont know why but im going to get back in the rhythm again today.
also shoutout to pg, he's really inspirational, probably the main reason i just started this in the first place :)
- aayush